Be The Sunshine!

Just a side note before I rant for a few paragraphs..I'm thinking of renaming my blog...FLOG [family+blog=FLOG].

Phewww.
 What a weekend. It was what you might call a "bipolar weekend".
Friday morning I left behind my family for the first time. On our way for Adam to drop me off my eyes were teary and my heart was confused. I was looking forward to a wonderful weekend of refreshment and worship for my King, but I was already missing my family that I was still in the car with.
I had thoughts like...

• HOW WILL THEY MAKE IT WITHOUT ME!?
• Will they miss me as much as I will miss them?
• Will their diapers be changed?
• Will they starve?

They all stayed the weekend with Mimi, so Adam did have some help, BUT so much could still go wrong. [I'm not so great at the leaving thing].

The conference was wonderful. I learned so much. We were taught

• Be The Sunshine!
• Just pick up the socks!
• Our highest calling is not motherhood..it is glorifying Christ through motherhood.
• Don't let the busyness get you ... realize what is ACTUALLY important and what is God-centered amongst the busyness.
• Some things HAVE to be left undone for the GREATER thing to be done.
• Teaching our children about Christ isn't as effective as showing them how to live for Christ.
• Oh yes and always wear PRETTY underwear!

Worship was wonderful The speakers were great. We stayed up wayyy past bedtime .We laughed .. we cried .. and then we laughed.. and then we cried.
One mom made the statement it was as if she had watched a Chick Flick all weekend. =)
We were lost SEVERAL times...most of the time.... driving and walking. [good times]

We were on the homestretch and we were all ready to see our families. On the drive home I recieved a phone call that went something like this.
Adam: "Hey babe. Having a good time?"
Me: "Yes. We just ate dinner and are about to be back on the road."
Adam" "Ok. Good. Well I'm on my way to Walmart to get PEDIALYTE."

Yes .. we all know what pedialyte means. Ansley my 9 month old had a stomach virus. It started around 6 that evening and by 1:00 AM I was waking up my 2 year old and loading up in the van for a trip to the ER.

Ansley could keep nothing down and was throwing up some blood. So in my head it was something like this for that whole car ride AHHHHHHHH.
We knew NOONE with this virus so I wasn't sure thats what it was.

They took samples of puke..samples of blood.. and samples of pee.
I tried to hold back the tears as they put in the IV and then carted us away for x-rays.
By this time I had convinced myself ..THIS IS NO VIRUS .. SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH MY BABY GIRL.
So as I held her in my arms on the hospital bed trying to keep her from pulling out her IV [ I was warned by the pleasant nurse that it would be my fault if she did] I prayed. I prayed for my baby and for God to hold us in his arms.

We left the ER at 6 that morning and now Monday afternoon Ansley is finally back to her smiley self. It WAS just a virus but it KICKED HER BUTT.

So as my "bipolar weekend" has come to an end, it is back to life as a stay at home mom. I plan on being an intentinoal mom..a mom with a purpose to shine light on my family and show my girls who God is..why we are here and how to glorify Christ in everything. I'm positive I will fall short of this but I know that God makes great of everything that is His.


....another side note....as I am blogging Anna is now singing "Go to sleep little baby" in SCREAMO. Should I be worried? =)